Regret

Treading water in a pool of regret...
Not productive, but where I am today,
And the weeks before.

Someone pull the plug
Drain this pool.

I need to walk out,
But don't know how.

The Half-Life of Love

If you build a wall around your love for someone, what is the half-life of love?
When can you take the wall down and not get burned?
What if the wall gets cracked?
How do you protect yourself from the fall out?

Hole

Hole

Dark

In this hole

I dug.

Deeper and deeper.

Why?

Gave up so much.

My own doing,

My own hands. 

Civil War

Civil War

Competing forces

Inside

One to nurture, cocoon myself

One to go crazy and fuck the world.

Balance,

I have not.

Erase

Erase

The plans, the dreams

flit into my mind.

Rub them out --

erase with my finger.

Need an app for that,

for my mind

and heart.

Falling

Falling

Delusion built the walls

Denial, the floor

Flood of reality

No footing

Falling

Liquid suspended

Liquid suspended
 
Inside

Tears run down

Filling me up.

How do I look solid outside,

When I am liquid suspended

Inside?