Civil War

Civil War

Competing forces

Inside

One to nurture, cocoon myself

One to go crazy and fuck the world.

Balance,

I have not.

Erase

Erase

The plans, the dreams

flit into my mind.

Rub them out --

erase with my finger.

Need an app for that,

for my mind

and heart.

Falling

Falling

Delusion built the walls

Denial, the floor

Flood of reality

No footing

Falling

Liquid suspended

Liquid suspended
 
Inside

Tears run down

Filling me up.

How do I look solid outside,

When I am liquid suspended

Inside?

Blind Verity

Blind Verity

Light shines,

Blinding clarity.

What I cast aside,

So precious.

Verity, could you not see the truth?

The choice to give up, not try.

Praying to idols,

Shiny objects attract.

Blind.

Now through the darkness I see,

Verity,

What I gave up,

I collapse.